Broken Hearts

Love, that’s what they call it,

It’s always you, only you, no semblance of my own being.

If I’d have known every little thing I say,

No matter how small, would be nitpicked all day,

Would I have still gone with it, with you?

If I’d have known, this love of mine,

Would have me begging on my knees, trying not to cry,

Would I still have gone with it, with you?

I don’t think I went by a day without you having something to say,

If I’d have known back then, that I would be suffering this way,

Would I still have gone with it, with you?

I feel deceived, lied to.

I feel lost, broken.

I feel trapped, trapped in a box I can’t leave,

Trapped in a box I can’t be myself in.

I feel naive, naive to have ever trusted you,

Naive to have believed it wouldn’t change.

“Why would it?” Said you, with that sparkle in your eye,

That damn sparkle,

It made me believe anything, everything was possible,

Oh, how foolish of I.

I’ve read stories, of all kinds,

There’s always something bothering them,

Something pulling them apart,

I don’t get it though, but I get it though.

I wonder if they were as frequent as ours,

Would they have stayed till the end if it were?

Why is she not gone yet, they tell,

And I do wonder, as well,

Why do I stay? Why I dwell ?

In this misery I seem to have brought upon myself.

Is this love? Is that why?

But he gets me flowers everyday,

Tulips, roses blooming all the way,

I know he’s there when I do fall,

I know he’ll catch me after all.

He’s always been there when I’m sad,

He’s always been there when things went bad.

Am I just worrying about the little things?

I really hope so, I just want to let it all sink.

I do love him, very much for that,

If I didn’t, I’m pretty sure my dad would’ve held me back.

He does love me too, he shows it well,

If not, why would he agree to this, pray tell?

But the sparkle is gone, the light has diffused,

So has our love, barely has it sizzled,

You haven’t looked at me in so long,

With those eyes of hope that dragged me along.

I don’t know where this will go, how this may end,

But I do know that I won’t be able to leave you, no matter what bend,

I will be here, yours to hold,

Til death do us part, as we’ve been told.